Crazy Boy.

Dallas,

      I just wanted to let you know how excited I am to be engaged to you. You make me so incredibly happy. I am a very lucky girl. I count my blessings everyday because I have the sweetest boy in the whole world. You are so sweet to me. You always take care of me, and love on me when I need it most. 

      Recently life has been hard on me, but you just take me in your arms and hold me until the hardness passes and I'm okay again. This is the thing I love most about you. You are always, unconditionally, there for me. Regardless of the circumstance. You get me back thinking rationally, and make sure to always have my back. I really appreciate everything you do for me. You are absolutely incredible.

      How did you become so amazing? I just don't understand. You're so caring and loving and sometimes I think it's impossible for someone to be so wonderful. How did you get this way? How do you love people so unconditionally? You blow me away. I love you so much. You are such a great man. I can't believe I'm lucky enough to be with you for the rest of my life. I can't believe we are going to be married soon. I can't believe that I have this big 'ol ring on my finger. I can't believe how in love I am. And most of all: I can't believe that my love for you keeps on growing. Just when I think I can't possibly love you any more then I do, my love for you grows. It's incredible. You're incredible.

I love you, dally face. Don't you forget that. 

I can't wait to come home tonight from work and kiss your smiling face. That's the best part of the day.

xoxoxoxoxoxo

Your fiance

Forever Growing Love.

I don't think you get it. I'm in love with you. I've been in love with you for some time now. And this silly love just keeps growing. Like a child. It just keeps going and going and going- -I sometimes wonder how much more love is inside of me, because I swear every single text I get from you just makes me freak out like a little girl. It makes me feel like a princess. Love really is an amazing thing. I love being in love with you.

Right now is a weird point in our relationship, I'd have to say. Because I think I'm ready to settle down, be in love, and just bask every night in this wonderful life of ours. However, realistically that can't happen. You're there, I'm here, and we are trying our hardest to make this work. And we're doing it. Damn, we're doing it good. And I'm really proud of that fact. We are doing just as good as we were when you were here. I mean, I miss you like crazy. Like- real crazy. But ya know. That's okay. We will miss each other. That's a part of life. It's bound to happen. And I think it's benefiting us, because now we are realizing how much we actually mean to each other. I really love you my sweetheart. It brings me to tears on the regular. (As you noticed in our video chat tonight)

I love everything about you. The way you make me feel better when I'm sad and missing you, the way you know exactly what is on my mind, I love everything about you. Every single little thing. I love you. All that you are. You're truly my everything. I wish that when I came home on Monday, that I would be coming home to you. That I could just jump in your arms, and hold you for hours. I just want to be yours forever. I want nothing more then to be Kaitlyn Hanson. I'd actually really love that. I love you.

Sorry for the rambling, I'm headed to bed now. Dreaming of you, and wishing you were laying next to me. I love you my sweetheart. Nighty night.
xoxoxoxo
your future wife

Remember Me!

Hey babe!
So, we've been together for a year and a half. That's a really long time. This last year and a half I really wouldn't trade for anything. Not a million dollars, not anything ever. Because I've learned so much about myself, as well as learned so much about you, and how bad I really love you. This has become extra relevant this last week. Sunday your parents told you/I that they were moving to Seattle. This freaked me out. Worrying if I'm going to loose you. And babe, I really really don't want that. But I also don't want to be selfish. I want you to do whatever ends up making you happy. I just want you to be happy, and I want to eventually be able to give you what you've given me. I really love you, babe. I really really do.

I hope you never forget me, no matter how this life ends up. (Though I hope you'll always be mine!) I hope you remember the times we sat up laughing for hours about nothing but the sounds we were making. Don't forget that day at the bowl, before I left on vacation, when we rolled around and goofed off, like no body was around. I hope you never forget the way we felt when we held each other while falling asleep that first night. I hope you never forget all the amazing moments we've had. All the feelings we've felt together. Just remember me.

I love you so much, Dallas. I really do. You're my boy, and I'll always be your girl. No matter where this world takes us, know that I'll always be in your corner cheering you on. I'm going to be here for you until the end of this world. I'm always going to be your girl. I love you, babe. So much
xoxoxoxoxoxo

Forever and Ever and Ever

Hey Honey Butt,
I love you so much. Didn't ya know? Over last weekend (Sunday) we went ring shopping. My favorite! It was so amazing. I have always felt like I have made you feel like you have to marry me. But sunday it was different! It was like you actually want to marry me, and I really like that in a man. (Lawl) You're really wonderful. And I'm lucky to have you in my life. I feel blessed every day whenever I see you. I just really already know that you are the man for me. You're the one whose breath I wanna smell every morning (Ew, morning breath!!). You're the one whose feet I wanna smell when you really needa change your socks. And last of all, you're the only one I will ever let "Cup of Cheese" me. Ever. I really love you, Dallas. I love how smelly you can be, I love how silly you can be, and I especially love how sweet you can be. You just generally are all of those things. And I really love that about you. You're just a really wonderful man, and I hope that some day I can marry you, and have you for mine. You're amazing, sugar lips.

xoxoxo
Your girlfriend

PS. There are so many cute walrus'. I couldn't pic one. So finally I settled on this:

And So It Was

My beautiful other half,
You don't know the amount that you mean to me. It is an overwhelming feeling, every time I even see you. You make me the happiest girl in the world. You turn my insecurities into things to be confident about, and you never fail to bring a smile to my face. I'm unsure how such an amazing creature exists these days. But I'm glad you do. And I'm even more glad that I've been able to find you. It's bizarre to me that you've existed like this for 18 years, and I'm the girl that's gotten you. You're a real catch, honey.
Not only are you the sweetest boy I've ever even heard about, but the way you foster our relationship is unreal. Your willingness to work through things has been so inspirational to see, and so motivating. I think sometimes it's so easy for people in relationships to just give up, but you've never even come close to giving up on us. You juts keep fighting, and keep pulling me in, even though I'm the biggest pain in your ass. That's really admirable.
Honestly, I can't wait to grow up with you. To be married, have some Oscar's, raise all 3 1/2 babies with you, and eventually hold your old wrinkled hand. I can't think of anything better then to be next to your side for the rest of my life. To wake up every morning to your hopeful smile. I can't wait to work through our arguments together, to fight like hell, and make up afterwords. I can't wait for the hundreds of more times you just pull me close when I'm being dumb. I can't wait for the rest of forever with you, baby.
I love you so much. Never forget that. You're what keeps me going everyday, you're what gives me hope in humanity. You're my everything, fart face. And I really love all of you.

Love always,
The Pain In Your Ass/ Your Walrus.
PS. This one is so much cuter. It is you. Because it has a really nice mustache. And you have a really nice mustache. And I like that about you, babe. 

You Make My Dreams Come True (Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh)

I love you so much baby. You make me feel so happy. I can't believe how lucky I got to get to spend this life with you. I love every minute we spend together and you make every minute feel refreshing and new. Sometimes I can't believe that this all can be real. It's overwhelmingly beautiful at times but I wouldn't have it any other way. I've loved the past few weeks, I've loved you helping me with my projects and holding my hand and loving me when I probably didn't deserve it. I've loved teasing you in a funny accent and making you giggle and squeal. You are just the cutest damn thing and I can't wait for the rest of my life by your side. You are my rock, and my walrus. Because walrus's are kind of cute.

This one looks pretty sassy like you! And I like his mustache. I wish I could be a walrus and you could be one too. I love you so much baby. Even though you're not a walrus. Thanks for always being there and working so hard for this even though it would be easier to throw in the towel sometimes. Muah! I love you sweetheart.

Little bit of Everything

There are so many things I could talk about right now. Mainly because tonight with you was truly amazing. I mean, we went on a date, we played dress up, we had sexy time, had a little bit of snuggles and then we played like children. Can it get any better? No, I don't think so. You're basically the best boy ever. Because only you can keep up with me and my moods like that. Seriously though. Tonight was so amazing. It was like when we first started dating. And we would just pretty much be friends that kissed occasionally. I mean, don't get me wrong. I absolutely love being your girlfriend/wife more then anything ever. I really do. But sometimes it's exciting to go back to that. Back to the beginning. It helps me to fall in love with you all over again. It helps me to remember what I love about you (Though, that's not hard.) and it keeps me guessing about what could happen next. I love that about us. We are always in love, it's just a matter of how we show our love that day. It is either through arguing/ worrying, cuddling, chatting, playing, or dating. And somedays, (like today) it's all of them. I enjoy that about us.
After roaming Youtube I ran across a funny flashback of my 6/7th grade life. And thought it was appropriate to share with you. So at the end of this post you will find a video of "Girlfriend" by Avril Lavigne. But of course it's the remix with Lil' Mama. Because dayum. Ignore the fact that they are driving a Mustang (ew), and enjoy the fact that  it's the olden days sort of love.

And remember: A pin up of me is allowed if it's a 50's style house wife deal. And if you pretend that I can actually walk in the heels I'm wearing in it. Lawl. This post just turned into shiz. I love you so much honey. Thank you for tonight. I fell so much more in love with you. You are really my best friend. And my boyfriend. And I'm so lucky and blessed to have someone like you. You give me butterflies.

Feels Like Today

It seems like every single day I love you a little bit more. Even if there isn't really a reason for it. Weather it be a certain smile you give me, or a hilarious joke you crack. There are so many reasons I fall more and more in love with you.
You make me feel like a princess inside. You hold me and make me feel so comfortable. The way you speak to me is like no one has spoken to me before. You really do mean a lot to me, Dallas. I care so much about you, and about us, and about everything in general. I really want everything to work out, and I will give anything to make that happen. I'm in this for the long run, sweetie. I'm playing for keeps. Because I love you, and I love the way that we are.
I love that we can dream together, and it's not even that weird (Okay, so sometimes it's silly. But I love it.). I love that we can tease each other, and know that we still care about one another. I love that we can have arguments, and have them worked out within minutes. I love how easy we can get lost in conversation. Good or bad. We are good at that. I love that we can sit together for hours, and not really have to say anything. We can just feel each other. The way we can call each other on our bullshit. The way you hold me. The look you get when you're about to tell a really funny joke. But most of all, I love the way we love. It's like nothing I've seen before. Everyone says they're in love, but I don't think this feeling has ever been felt before. What we have is really great. It's really unique. Not many people get the opportunity to be in love with their other half. And me? I'm the luckiest girl to have my half be you. You truly are amazing, Dallas. I hope for so many more beautiful nights in your arms. 

Best Parts

The best parts of you are the ones you don't even realize are great. The parts of you that you try to hide from the world. My favorite pieces of you are the things that make you insecure. Not because I like that you feel silly about their existence, but because it's so darling to me that you don't find something that is wonderful even that good at all. 

Go ahead and act like you're not insecure at all... But I know the way you look when I touch your face. The way you look at me when I kiss you. The awkward smile you get when I touch your nippals. Or the giggle you get when I mention how absolutely sexy your body is. Yes, you're insecure. Who isn't? I love that about you. Because even though you don't think it is, I see it as pure perfection.

I love you, honey. I really do. I love every piece of you. Every inch of your beautiful body, and every crevice of your soul. I could be bundled up in your love for days, and be completely alright. If I got kisses like the ones I got tonight, I would be the happiest girl ever. Because honey, your love is my drug. (I couldn't resist. I'm sorry.)

Love always, 

Your girl.

Once In a Lifetime

Hi Babe,
I really. Really love you. And I'm incredibly lucky to have someone as sweet and as understanding as you. I love you so so much, and I'm sorry recently things have been hard, but we've made it through harder things before and I know that we can make it through this. I am going to give everything I have to make this work for you because you are my rock, when the storm is crashing around me you are what holds me down.

I love you so much baby, I can't believe that I found something like this, a once in  a lifetime love story like what they write books about. Our love is timeless, a classic in and of itself. And I'm just happy that I can be a part of it, A wise man once said "You can forget the things someone says, you can forget the things someone does, but you can never forget the way someone makes you feel" And that's always going to be it for me. If I lose you I will never lose my feelings for you. I need you. Don't forget that. No matter how I have you I need you to be apart of my life.

I will work for forever to bring us through this. I love you so much, and I want to make things work and I want to love you for all time. I know that you feel the same, even if it gets misconstrued and buried under more serious dark feelings, I want you to know no matter what happens to, or with us, you will always have my heart. Even if you're not my girlfriend I am going to make sure that someday you're my wife. Believe that.

I will never forget you or the things that we've felt together. You make me so happy, remember the day in the park what seems like an eternity ago, when I kissed you and you kissed me, and in that moment I knew I'd be with you for all my life. The look in your eyes when you looked at me told me that you felt it too, the way you bit your lip and looked down like you were embarrassed  there are a million moments like that one that I'll never forget. I remember the first time I told you I loved you, and every time I've said it I've meant it and every time I've said it my love has grown a little more.

Don't forget those moments. Don't forget the feelings we've shared. Don't forget us. And I won't either. Kaitlyn, you are the love of my life, and I'll fight for you forever. Just for one more kiss, one more hug, one more conversation with you I'd give anything. I want to grow old with you and meet out little Oscar's someday with you, Gibby and Max and Beyonce, and little Rhiannon. I want to share those moments with you, and I hope you want to as well.

These Times

Hey Pookie,
You know. We have hard times. Difficult days. Lately it's been more often then not. And I'm willing to take responsibility for it. Because I have been quite the B!+[# lately. Not only that, but I've made you deal with things you shouldn't have to. I've made quite a mess out of us, and I feel really bad about it. And I don't know if you are going to be able to completely forgive me for burdening you with so much of my endless shit... But I'm going to try really hard to make it up to you. Because I think that you are worth it. And I am never going to give up on something that is really this great. I love you, Dallas. I really do. You are my rock. The person I look to when I need help, the person I want to share all of my success with, and the person I want to spend every day of forever waking up next to. You're my sweetheart. I look at old couples, ages 65+, and all I can think about is how at some point, I want to be exactly like that. Holding your hand, so wrinkly and old, looking into your eyes, with all of the laugh lines around them, and just be able to know that we have made it. And until that day, I will fight every single second of every day working for that.

You're a really great guy, Dal. You really are. And I don't think I tell you that enough. You have so much great potential. You have the opportunity to do really anything you want. And I am positive you'd do it almost perfectly. You are such a smart, hardworking driven individual, and you really are going somewhere great. I can see it when you talk! You inspire me to do better in life. You help me believe in the good in the world. And you make me more and more excited about our life together.

Thank you so much for everything, honey. Thank you so much for believing in me, and in us. Thank you for always wanting to make things work between us. Thank you for always being there for me, even when I really don't deserve it. But thank you mostly for being you. I really admire you.

I love you, sugar lips. Always and forever. Even if you decide that you don't love me anymore. I'll always love you. I promise!

xoxoxoxoxoxo
Girlfriend

Sugar Lips

Hey baby.
Did you know that your lips taste like sugar? It's really true. They always taste sweet and delicious. Did you also know that your heartbeat is something that can really calm me down? That's why I prefer to snuggle with you when I'm having a panic attack. One more silly thing: Did you know I really enjoy your energy? Even when I'm sad, you can make a funny face and light up the whole room. No one but you can do something like that! It's ridiculous. Okay, really, last thing. Did you know I'm so crazy in love with you? Like to the point of serious obsession. It's true. You're all I think about, and the only thing I dream about these days. I wake up and it's like you've been there the whole night because you were just there in my dreams. And I just really love it.

You are so amazing, baby. I really love everything about you. You make me so happy inside and out. I wouldn't trade what we have for a billion friends or anything else in this world. Because the truth is: you're the only thing I want. Ever. If I were to spend the rest of my life with you, I would be just fine.

I just really love you, honey butt. Forever and always.

Your girlfriend